I’m feeling blue today. Woke up feeling blah, and got news that a dear friend has to have surgery and that kids may no longer be an option for her. Anyone who knows me knows that I adamantly do not want kids. This point of view, in light of what my friend is going through, is making me feel like a very selfish person. However, we all make the decisions that are best for our lives, and no kids is what’s best for mine. Still, I can’t help but feel bad for being down when I know that what my friend is going through is about 900 times worse than listening to Mark whine about his hand, and the heat here in AL, and still having all these boxes to deal with. My friend knows I’m there to support her- I made sure she’s aware of this- but that nagging feeling of being a brat remains.
September 15, 2010